I need some advice

I get real emotional when I smoke so I started to talk to him about starting a family with me and moving in together. I want this so bad with him but it’s like our split life is keeping us apart. He made me feel good again like he always does and started touch all over me. I was high af and ain’t got no dick in weeks so as soon as he put his hand down my pants I came all over my self wile I was tucked back. He pulled my pants down and stared to eat my ass and clean my juices of me with his tongue. I was so into into it I stay hard after I came. I always get me salad tossed when he does something he ain’t supposed to do lol. He ate my ass for about 15 minutes till I pushed his head away and went down on him I stared sucking his dick but all I could think of is that he been fucking some pussy rite before I got her. It tasted so good though I could stop till he came down my throte wile I let him fuck my face. When he was dome I cooked him something to eat did some laundry and sat around with him in panties and one of his shirts. We talked about moving in with each other again for a wile, having kids, and getting married. We called the surgeon in Atlanta and booed a consultation for a 360 lipo, bbl, breast implants, and some feminization facial surgery. I’m so excited we are going threw with this finally. I just hope he takes me serious enough to back all that shit up he be talking. I would love to have his baby. We layed on the couch just cuddling and touching each other for a couple hours watching Netflix. I feel so good when I with him as a women. I can’t wait to take the next step. I just payed they waiting to feel his dick to start getting up again cause I was so ready for round two. I begged him to pop a viagra and finally he did lol. I waited till it kicked in cause I wanted him hard as a rock and ready to fuck me for hours. When I was up I slowly put it in my ass and started to ride it till it hurt in a good way. I could feel it in my stomach lol. We was all around his house with it I swear I felt like I was in heaven with him in me pulling my hair hand on my throat fucking me on my back.