Ticket To Paradise

Men like Dave Rogers had savagely beaten transsexuals. Some shemales had even been killed by men who’d regarded them as freaks. Even gay men sometimes attacked transsexuals, regarding them not as queer but as beyond queer. Patrolman Rogers cared nothing about Toni or her plight as a woman trapped inside a man’s body.

Toni had been a female, inside, as long as she could remember, but society, her parents included, had insisted she behave as the boy whom, according to her genitals, she was. She’d been denied dolls, tea parties, sleepovers, skirts and dresses and panties and jewelries, the company of boys, and the thousand other pleasures, large and small, that genetic girls enjoyed simply by being themselves.

Although Toni was beautiful, and more attractive than many genetic women, she had to be careful with her every mannerism, her every gesture, and her every word, to make sure she didn’t slip. The way she held herself, the way she walked or sat, the way she crossed her legs-any, or all, or any of a hundred other things-could give her away as an imposter, as a female impersonator rather than a woman in the making. In calling her a drag queen, Patrolman Rogers had voiced one of Toni’s deepest secret fears-that others would consider her to be a man in women’s clothing rather than a woman trapped inside a man’s body who was taking measures to correct nature’s mistake. She’d undergone hours of counseling, hormone therapy, painful electrolysis, and even a few operations, although she planned to keep her penis and testicles. She had full, feminine breasts, a round bottom, killer legs, and a lovely face. She felt like the woman she was inside or, rather, like a new creature, part male and part female without being either. She felt like a third sex, and her androgynous nature thrilled and excited her. She was content to have both feminine breasts and womanly buttocks while retaining her masculine genitals. Many transsexuals were; not all went through the complete cycle, submitting to castration and the replacement of their penises and testicles with man-made vaginas, fashioned from their inverted penises and fitted with labia created from a roll of abdominal fat or other tissue. Toni was one of these stunning creatures, a shemale or ladyboy, who was both male and female while being neither sex.